#thanks for sending this in !! i've been really excited to get smth started with you

[sunsetsoft]

📩 ❛ What you’ve done you cannot undo ❜ @vaultdamned 🔆 ghost band – accepting!

ellie holds vincent in her gaze, both eyes blue, but one not quite as blue as the other. functioning, and close enough that anything less than deliberate extended eye contact would hide the discrepency, and harder still to identify the reason. stolen synth parts, but elinor's now. he sighs, thumbing the cold lipstick case in her pocket. 

"at a certain point, that has to be the point, vincent. right?" she thinks to everything she's done in the wastelands, thinks on every person she's befriended, lost. every double-cross of the institute, both ways, of valentine's admission on what the institude held on her. every person she'd killed in the name of information, in the name of science; in the name of her survival. he had to keep going. even as she became a person she hated, tried to hold onto the compassion he characterised himself by. 

"and it's the same for everyone else. actions started feeling more permanent since... before the first bombs fell. we have to live with what we've done, even when we can't put it right. but we can still try."

[lucy90712]

Hii how are you? I saw your post about sending in requests soo here I am haha :)

Could you write smth with Marc guiu and like long distance relationship (reader is from another country, I'd love Germany cos I'm from there but any country is okay) and like her surprising him with a visit, maybe she comes to a game and like waits for him after as the 'surprise' kinda. Feel free to adjust or change things if you want :)

Thanks so much in advance and I hope you have a great day!

Being in a long distance relationship is hard especially when there was a time that you weren't long distance it becomes hard to separate yourself from the person you love but sometimes it has to be done. This is exactly how it is for me and Marc as a few years ago my family moved to Barcelona which is where we met and became friends for a few months before we started dating. For a year we were so happy together until my dad lost his job and got a new one back home in Germany so we had no choice but to be long distance which was so hard at first but we have made it work as best as possible but I still miss him a lot. 

A few weeks ago Marc got a move to Chelsea which he was really excited about and I was really happy for him. Between his move and preseason we haven't seen each other in like two months which is the longest we've gone without seeing each other. This weekend is supposed to be Marc's first game which he thinks I can't make it to but I've been lying to him so I can surprise him. It's not all a lie originally I didn't think I could go as I was supposed to be going to a family event but things got moved around and I just didn't tell him as I thought it would be fun to surprise him. 

Getting tickets to the match wasn't easy as they were all sold out and I'm not as familiar with Marc's new Chelsea teammates as I was with his Barcelona teammates. In the end I was brave and dm'ed one of his teammates to ask for help getting tickets and he was so helpful and gave me a way to get hold of tickets and offered to help me surprise Marc which I took him up on as I have no idea how to go about things. His teammate made sure that I knew how to get to the stadium and where would be the best place to stay the night before the game and he sorted things out so I'd be allowed into the back of the stadium with the rest of the players friends and families so I can actually surprise Marc after the game. 

Now things are all set in place and all I have to do is keep this hidden from Marc which won't be easy as we always FaceTime every night and I'm scared he'll notice that I'm not in my room as I'm staying in a hotel close to the stadium. Marc is quite observant he always notices when I've had my hair cut even if it's just a trim and he can always tell when I've changed my skincare or makeup routine so fooling him isn't going to be easy. I thought he'd have caught on before I even got here as we quite often text throughout the day and I had to have my phone off while I was on the plane but luckily I was able to say that I was caught up with something and didn't check my phone which he believed. 

As soon as I arrived to the hotel and dropped my suitcase off I went back out onto the streets to go the the Chelsea store which is close to the stadium to find a shirt with Marc's name and number on. He said that he would send me a shirt but he hasn't been able to yet as he hasn't got an official game day shirt that he can part with. What kind of girlfriend would I be if I didn't wear his shirt especially for his first game at a new club so I took matters into my own hand to try and find a shirt for myself. The store was much bigger than I expected it to be and it was filled with people but I managed to navigate my way around until I finally found a shirt with Marc's name on it which I bought and got out of there as quick as possible. 

Like clockwork Marc FaceTimed me at 8pm and I had to do my best to try and keep the camera on me and not show much of the room so he wouldn't get too suspicious. To start with Marc seemed confused and was looking at my surroundings but he didn't say anything so neither did I. We had a normal conversation about what we had done today and I had to completely make things up which he just believed as he trusts me enough to not question anything I say which is really sweet and helpful in this specific situation. We talked for hours until I had to pretend to need to go as I was supposed to be up early for this family event he still thinks I'm going to so we said goodnight to each other and I just hoped and prayed that Marc wasn't too suspicious about my surroundings. 

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I woke up to my alarm and a few texts from Marc telling me to have a good time with my family so I wished him luck at his game before getting up and getting ready. Once I was ready I still had hours until I needed to leave for the game and I had no idea what to do with myself. I was so nervous for Marc, I always get nervous before Marc plays but for some reason today I'm extra nervous for him. Playing for a new club in a different league especially such a competitive one like the premier league is nerve wracking and playing at Chelsea comes with another level of competition and pressure that I know Marc can handle but that doesn't mean I can't be nervous for him. 

Eventually the time came for me to leave so I changed into the shirt I bought yesterday and grabbed all my things before calling a taxi to get to the stadium. There was so much traffic on the road but I allowed plenty of time to get there so by the time I arrived there was still enough time for me to find my seat and take in the stadium before the match started. I have been to all sorts of stadiums to watch Marc play but most of them don't compare to Stamford bridge even though there was a lot of empty seats the atmosphere was amazing people were really in the spirit and ready for the first match of the new season. 

Soon enough the players came out to warm up and as always my eyes were drawn to Marc as he ran across the pitch and kicked a ball around to get himself ready. He wasn't in the starting line up which wasn't a huge surprise to me but I'm hoping he can play in the second half as I'd love to see him actually play. Watching him out there made me so excited to surprise him after the match I know he wished I could be here but he would never say that as he doesn't like to make me feel bad when I can't make it to big matches. In just under two hours I can finally hug and kiss him again which I've missed so much while we've been apart but for now I have to wait a bit longer. 

The match didn't get off to the best start with Chelsea conceding within the first 20 minutes then they had a few good chances which unfortunately they weren't be able to convert. Half time came around and not much changed but 66 minutes into the game Marc finally came on. He received a loud cheer from the crowd which really warmed my heart as I know he was worried about being accepted by the fans but that doesn't seem like it's going to be a problem. Marc played well trying to make runs and get close to the goal to help the team but ultimately it didn't make a difference as the match ended 2-0 after an 84th minute goal from Kovacic which wasn't well received by the home fans but in the end they didn't care so much about that and more about the loss. 

I wasn't thinking about the loss I was thinking about Marc, the players were still out on the pitch but as soon as they started making their way off I left my seat and headed towards the back parts of the stadium so I can finally see Marc. Security let me straight through and directed me to where I needed to go to find the locker rooms. Just as I made it down there the players started to head towards the locker room and I was able to spot Marc down the corridor as he was talking to Sanchez so he hadn't noticed me yet. The closer he got the more I wondered if he would even notice me as he was so in his own world but luckily Marc looked in my direction at the right time which caused him to stop in his tracks as he tried to figure out what was happening. 

It wasn't long before Marc realised I was actually stood there and he ran towards me and picked me up in his arms to hug me tightly. He was all sweaty from running around for the last 30 minutes but I couldn't care less it just felt so good to be in his arms again. When he put me down one of his arms stayed around my waist while his other hand went to my jaw to pull me in for a kiss. It didn't stop at one kiss he made sure to make up for at least half the kisses I've missed out on over the last two months by pressing kisses all over my face. 

"I'm so happy you're here I've missed you so much" Marc said 

"I've missed you too you were amazing out there by the way" I said 

"Thank you I was sad that we lost but now none of it matters as I've got you here" he said 

"Wait weren't you supposed to be at a family thing how are you here?" He asked 

"That got moved so I decided I'd come surprise you at your first match as I just couldn't miss it" I said 

"Well I'm happy you could make it and I like your shirt how did you get that?" He asked 

"I battled London after I got here yesterday and went to the club store which was packed but I managed to find this as I thought I couldn't come here to support you without wearing your shirt" I said 

"You are so cute but now you can have this shirt so you've got a fully authentic one" he said 

"I look forward to showing that off to my friends" I laughed 

We talked for a bit longer before he had to go and get changed so he left me with a few of his teammates who he introduced me to while he showered and changed in record time. All of his teammates were lovely and they made me feel welcome which is something I was worried about as I got along with all of Marc's Barcelona teammates really well so I didn't think it would be the same here but so far everyone has been really nice. Soon enough Marc came back and it was time for us to go so we headed to my hotel to grab my things so I could stay with him for the next few days as my flight back isn't until Wednesday as I thought we could spend an extra few days together. He doesn't have a proper place yet but he's staying in an actual apartment so we decided we would stay there. 

Once we made it back to Marc's place we settled in on the sofa and didn't move from there. He ordered us food for dinner and we had on our tv show that we only ever watch together as we have a lot to catch up on. All we really did was sit and cuddle but that's exactly what I've been missing while we've been apart so today has just been the perfect day. 

[oleander-nin]

SURPRISE I'M BACK

Hello again Ollie! I know it's only been maybe a week but shhhh. I have more things I'm curious about, so I was hoping I could throw more random questions at one of my favourite authors <3

✧─── ･ ｡ﾟ★: *.✦ .* :★. ───✧

OLLIE INTERVIEW #2: THE SEQUEL

What's your favourite flower? Are they oleanders? If so, do you have a specific reason why?

I don't have a favourite, I don't know enough flowers. But if you have a couple flowers you like then I'd like to see them :D

On that note, why is Oleander-nin your handle? What does the "nin" mean?

(Confession: I didn't even know an oleander was the name of a flower. I thought that was just your name and Ollie was a nickname)

Who's your LEAST favourite character to write?

I think you answered who your favourite to write is before, so I'm curious.

Gimme a random headcanon for a character? (Preferably one of the rise turtles or your yan rise turtles <3) (OH OR TWOAL DONNIE <33)

Headcanon, fact, or a random little idea or something?

✧─── ･ ｡ﾟ★: *.✦ .* :★. ───✧

Side note, because now I'm thinking about it:

I have a headcanon (or maybe just a thought?) that twoal Donnie loves botany but has SPECIFICALLY gotten into flowers. Bonus points if he only really started to like them in the first place because he wants to grow/give them to MC and ended up taking an interest in flowers in general.

SIDE SIDE NOTE: I SAW WHAT YOU DID WITH THOSE SPECIFIC FLOWERS IN EACH CHAPTER AND I THINK IT WAS A COOL DETAIL TO HAVE DIFFERENT ONES WITH DIFFERENT MEANINGS AS TIME PASSES AAA

Love ya Ollie! /p I hope you've had a good day :D

- ☄️

Screams, I was so excited when I logged on and saw this. I'm so sorry it's been a couple days, I was offline for a bit. You're always welcome to throw questions at me, they make me really happy.

My favorite flowers are indeed Oleanders. Although I love so many flowers. My top five are Oleanders, Wisteria, Rhododendrons, Daffodils, and Hydrangeas. I'd show pics but my internet sucks rn.

Oleander-nin is my handle mostly because Oleander-nerium was taken. Oleanders are my favorite flower and Nin was originally going to be what I wanted to go by(Like a pen name). It's one of those names that kinda just, appeared I guess? But I ended up hating the sound of it though and decided to just be Ollie here too. I like being Ollie. Oleander is a dope name though and you're not the first person to think that was my name either(most people I've met have no idea what an Oleander is lmao). Also, how'd you find it wasn't my name? Did you look it up or smth? I'm just curious lol.

Raph. Or anyone not the turtles. But out of the turtles, it's Raph. I can't get him right. My brain has been too muddle by fandom and cannon so now when I write him I can't please either.

Uhhhhh Mikey would keep a snake if he could. He seems like a snake guy to me.

Twoal Donnie is into botany, actually! He grows all the flowers he sends. I've had it planned like this for a long time lol, and he'll show off his garden a lot in later chapters(once I get to writing them-)

THANK YOU FOR NOTICING THE FLOWER THING. I think you're the first person on Tumblr to point it out so far and I'm giddy. When I re-write it for the final time once I finish this draft, I'm gonna try and integrate more flowers.

Love you too Comet/p, sorry again for the late response!

[lqfiles]

heyy uhm thjs is my first time sending these kind of things and i js wanted to say that i really really reallyyyyy love stg, i've been reading it since chapter 10ish? but started following at about 20ish (srry abt that) and ik it doesn't mean much coming from an anonymous person but it makes me very happy (and PROUD) to see how many people are reading it now and how many asks you get :) overall im js immensely proud of you and your work

again ik it does not mean much coming from an anon but still you have no idea how great my days get when i get notis from your acc replying to questions or anons (cause i've figured it usually mean that you'll upload another chapter) ANYWAYS i've been struggling a LOT these few months, and one of the only things I seriously look up to is stg, so again, thank you SO so much :(

you don't even have to reply to this or anything (bc tbh i wouldn't know what to say either lol) but i would appreciate it if you could at least read it and know just how much power your ideas and writing actually have <3

also not sure if 50 was the last chapter (?) i was planning on writing smth like this when the smau ended BUT ITS WHATEVER RLLY !! anyways i will never be able to thank u enough for taking your time in this and genuinely putting effort and feelings on it, you are amazing !!

also im from Chile so idk if i made any mistakes while typing this… whatever i'll make sure to support you through each and every work of yours from now on ! take care <333

(god this was a little long IM SORRY again you don't have to reply to this i js hope u read it and know just how capable and dedicated you are and how happy you can make other people iwnsnsks <3)

anon you actually made me tear up wthh :(( LONG ANSWER INCOMING……

i think this is the best thing i could’ve been told and hear, and the fact that it’s anonymous doesn’t change how much your words mean to me trust me. i honestly wasn’t sure how commited i’d be to this smau since i never have managed to finish a slow burn ideas because of the lack of creativity. but i think the fact that you still kept up from such an early chapter (when i remember pointing out that i’m really just writing this without a full plot yet multiple times) is endearing and don’t worry, i don’t take it to heart that you didn’t follow me immediately loll, for all you knew this could’ve been the shittiest piece of writing and then you’d have to just unfollow lmaooo. also i think it’s cute that those who have kept up from early on until now have witnessed with me the growth of this series and the support on it 😭 i remember when 70 notes in day alone excited me and would get giddy by getting a SINGLE ask hsjdjdjd and now i’ve had chapters with 400 notes and get 10+ asks ??? i didn’t even really dwell on it that you guys who have been ogs too have seen the growth too :(( i think it’s quite funny, because last year, i rarely got any asks and barely checked on this account except for posting some drabbles here and there, and didn’t even speak to any mutuals, i remember i told myself i’d keep this a writing blog only without interacting much at all but ever since stg i’m surprised by the amount of mutuals i’ve made and how many people are really perceiving my account AND how interactive i’ve been even tho i’d usually log out immediately after posting something lmaoo! it’s cute and i appreciate you for sticking around and being proud of me !!! it honestly catches me off guard when some of you say that stg is the highlight of your day or how much you love it or how it has inspired you to start writing yourself, because i can’t comprehend myself being influential like that at ALL 😭😭 but at the same time it warms my heart every time because it makes me feel useful…? i like seeing people happy and feel inspired by something i did so seeing people be so happy of a mere chapter really does make me smile :) i’m sorry to hear that life is hard on you, but again it means a lot to me knowing stg DOES affect your day positively (can’t believe we’ll be reaching the end tho..)

this wasn’t the last chapter, i got two more and then some bonus chapters so i hope you’ll enjoy them and my future work as well anon <33 i’ll continue to pour my effort and feelings into my writing love you and thank you for making time to write this !!!

[headintheclouds-posts]

Hey there :) it's me again the SMF anon who still didn't request.. (I'm so sorry, but I've been trying to come up with something since my ask.. why is it so hard to request something? 😭💀) But yeah well.. I actually kind of have something.. if you're still up to it of course!!

So I really like Yejun from Just Jerk 👀 and well, if you actually decide to write something, then idk.. I thought maybe something like friends to lovers? (they're both dancers) like him being into reader and confessing.. (reader likes him too and happy ending lol) and if you want to, you could make it a little suggestive in the end.. like them making out or smth..?

Idk I'm so sorry I'm so bad at this 😭😭😭 (shaking my head at myself rn bc this is so embarrassing)

Oh my goodness 😂 you’re too cute 🥰. Don’t apologise at all! I’m always here to help and give advice and the way you have explained what you want me to write is perfect, so don’t worry at all. Also Yejun is gorgeous, so I can see why you like him.

I hope this is ok and please send more requests in the future: don’t ever be embarrassed to ask ❤️.

Suggestive ❤️

You’re hit with the cool air conditioning as you walk into the practice room, as you spot several people who are already stretching in front of the mirrored wall. Walking to the corner of the room you place your bag on the floor and get out your water bottle before joining the other dancers to stretch. You usually didn’t come to the Just Jerk academy as you already a part of the 1 Million dance team, but one of your closest friends was running the class so you wanted to come and support.

Some of the girls sat in front of you suddenly gasped and started giggling amongst themselves. ‘Oh my god, he’s better looking than his pictures’ one of the girls whispers, ‘I wonder if he has a girlfriend?’ the other one responds. You slowly turn your head to see who they are talking about, but trying to not be too obvious about it. Unsurprisingly they are talking about your good friend Yejun, the one who was running this class. You’re not even remotely surprised at their comments though as since he appeared on Street Man Fighter, it’s difficult to even get into a class with any of the Just Jerk members. Just then a voice pulls you out of your thoughts, ‘y/n’, you hear as you look up to see Yejun walking towards you smiling. You could feel the girls eyes burning into the side of your head. You try to ignore it and stand up to greet him. ‘Hey’ you smile as he pulls you in for a quick hug. ‘Ready for todays class?’ He asks rubbing his hands together in excitement. ‘Always’ you giggle patting him on the shoulder. He pauses for a second, smiling at you before clapping his hands to let everyone know the class was about to start.

The class goes well and Yejun as always controls the room in such an effortless way. ‘Thank you everyone for coming and as usual we will post our next classes on our website’. Everyone slowly starts to gather their things and exit the room, whilst you wait for Yejun. You always had a few drinks and watched a movie together after a class. Yejun was saying goodbye to everyone when the girls from earlier approach him, ‘You’re such a good teacher’ one of them giggles placing her hand on his shoulder, ‘I would love to have a boyfriend that could dance like you, your girlfriend is very lucky’ she says fluttering her eyelashes, ‘oh I, erm well I’m actually single’ Yejun responds awkwardly rubbing the back of his neck before looking in your direction, the expression on his face is almost unreadable. ‘Well in that case take my number’ she smiles, tucking a piece of paper in his hands before turning on her heel and leaving with her friends in tow. You don’t know why but seeing that made your stomach drop, for some reason you wanted to walk across the room and rip up the paper in front of him, but instead you ask him if he’s ready to go, which he nods in response.

You walk side by side to his apartment in complete silence, it felt like you both had a lot to say but couldn’t bring yourselves to say anything at all. You arrive at Yejun’s place and make yourself comfortable on his sofa whilst he gets you both a drink. ‘What do you want to watch?‘ he asks to no response. You couldn’t help yourself, you were still thinking about the girl earlier who gave him the phone number. ‘Are you gonna go out with that girl?’ You blurt out without thinking, ‘erm I mean, if you would prefer we could watch a movie together another time, if you want to hang out with her’ you splutter trying to grasp back at your dignity which seemed to of just abandoned you. ‘Now why would I want to do that?’ He questions, cocking his eyebrow at you. ‘Well she’s pretty and she really seems to like you’ you state, not looking up from your eyelashes. ‘I’ve met prettier’ he responds causing you to finally look him in the eyes. ‘What’s she like?’ you ask as he sits himself next to you. ‘Hmm well, she’s kind, warm, an amazing dancer and she’s been a good friend to me for a long time’ he says as he moves closer towards you, ‘what else?’ you ask as your heart pounds in your chest. ‘To be honest I’ve been in love with her for as long as I can remember, but I’ve always been too scared to tell her in case she doesn’t feel the same’. At this point your faces are only inches away from each other. ‘How should I show her how I feel?’ He asks you as his eyes scan your face. ‘I think you should kiss her’ you whisper before his hand finds its way to the back of your head and his lips envelope yours. The kiss is filled with passion and emotion as you both cling to each other. Once you break apart you’re both fighting for breath, ‘you don’t know how long I’ve wanted to do that’ he says as he pulls you onto his lap to face him. ‘I think I’ve always wanted you too’ you reply, ‘but I’ve only just come to realise it, sorry I took so long’. ‘It’s ok, it doesn’t matter how long it took to get you to be mine, as long as I’ve got you then that’s all that matters’ he smiles as he pulls you into another kiss. The butterflies in your stomach awaken as his hands snake around your waist pulling you closer. ‘I can’t handle myself around you’ he whispers in your ear as he lays you back on the couch. You wrap your legs around his hips and connect your lips against his as you slowly loose yourself in each other.

[brick-a-doodle-do]

Okay, while this won’t be the best, or most well written, I can’t spend too long on this. I don’t know how long it will be until the creature realizes I’m awake and ends me, so I’ll be quick and straightforward.

I had just gotten my new game for my stream, I don’t remember what it was called, tiny adventures or something, i don’t know. I had gotten it at a discount, being the last one on the shelf or whatever, so I was fairly sxcited to play it. Hat really got me excited was the old fashioned vibe i got from it.

So. I put it in my computer, and loaded up my stream. It’s karl jacobs on twitch if anyone wants to look at it, kidding this is supposed to be serious.

But i started the stream wne thtrough the normal routine, whatever. I booted up the game to see it as a happy little adventure/rpg. With oyu as a shrunken person.

So i played. My viewers were more suspicious about it, worrying about why myh hand was suddenly too small to hold the mouse.

I continued playing although the mood of the game shifted when i noticed a clocked, cloaked sorry, figure following me around. Hte respawn messages became nicer and nicer, telling me that i can do it or that i could keep going. That got my viewers. Attention, but noit mine. I wa happy because it was so nice and gave me the courage to continue.

Until i got to the boss battle.

I suddenly couldn’t even reach my desk so it was too easy to die. Chat was paniced, so was i. Until it got worse. There was a new face on my screen who looked strangely human and sweet. I panicked as I saw this person pull themself out of my computer and reach down to grab me.

I was held up on stream to danglr over theur mouth as they spoke two words.

Your mine.

And i was dropped in their mouth and swallowed.

I ave been here for hours now, tryingt o find a way to escape as this creature began talking to my friends. I think my friend has tried to talk to the creature, and maybe even called the cops, but nothing’s worked so far. Ive beren keeping contact with my friends for a bit through tezt so they know im alive but i don’t know how lobg i will be.

Plese send hekp soon im starting to worry

-Karl

are you in danger? creature?? is this like a game ????

yoo a streamer in my inbox? :0000 honored :DD

tiny adventures lol that sounds like that old au i gave squishy,,, and ???? i've never heard of this game,,,, i NEED more g/t games cause god all of my g/t content comes from a few movies & tumblr efjgjdsf (anyone who sees this give me game ideas. preferably free like on itch.io or smth? are all the games on there free??)

aha yeah very likely mr jacobs BJJDDVJD shoes off on my blog pls

H i want a game like that oh my godddddd

ohhh it was? honey the computer shrunk me DSFJFDV

ohhh weird i love games like that! does he have a significance to the story later on i wonder?

boss battle okay cg for getting that far! was it against the cloaked figure? that'd be quite the betrayal

is this like a dream you had ??? it's interesting asf!

a vore dream oh my goddd i want a vore dream :0

a vore lucid dream, even better!

cool for sharing this w me, thank you! :DD

[maggstar]

hey, my love

just i was about to send this i saw ur post about missing me, wow telepathy or something like that !!! 

the past month has been weird! i passed my exams and i'm starting my summer semester this tuesday! i rly want to start working but every job seems… idk so overwhelming (?)even the smallest ones, im having a hard time starting - the start is always the scariest for me for some reason  and i dont know how to overcome that! also i dropped the dudes btw ha, i want to just focus on myself cuz i dont think dating is for me ! im too much of a hopeless romantic for all of this

i hope those 2 weeks off school did u good! and that ure better !! have u started ur summer semester already? ^^ let me know how ure doing please! im glad that safety lines are there and people who work there are angles im sure !! im glad they could help u! im rooting for u, love, always !!

as for the songs here are my thoughts!

darci -code red - loved the vibe!! and beat -  really really enjoyed that one, added it to my playlist !!

travis scott - my eyes- i already knew that one and it was one of my favorites of the whole album!!

david kushner - skin and bones - the guy has a great voice, i don't know if its my style but i did have fun, the lyrics are great !!! 

my song recommendations are

taylor swift - forever winter

carol ades - crying during sex

NIKI - backburner

hope u have fun,  let me what u think if u want ofc !

-♡︎ , its spring soon ! the sun will set later and the days will be warm ! i cant wait for that ! ily and i missed u too :3 

ps. just as  i was about to send this i saw ur post about missing me, wow telepathy or something like that !!! being called bubs isrly cute:((

I'm sorry for the late reply bby,

I feel you with starting smth new because same. I always think I'm too much of a coward since I'm scared of everything. I think the best is just to give it a go and let it happen sometimes! Most of the time, I realize that it's not even as bad as I thought it would be after doing it.

Btw, I've listened to your song reccomendations:

NIKI - backburner = her voice is really soothing, i liked it a lot.

carol ades - crying during sex = not really my style, but the girl has a really nice voice!

taylor swift - forever winter = the meaning of the song is beautiful :(

I'm also excited for spring! I really hope I will get to meet someone this time because everyone around me is getting together and I'm waiting for my turn lmao.

Ilym angel, thank you. ♡

[roci-wolf]

ROCI IM SO SORRY IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO REPLY I FORGOT 😭😭😭

but okay lemme go one by one by what i remember from what you said

i’m so sorry you’ve been going through a hard time. it isn’t easy when you feel like your mental health is failing. i know firsthand how hard it can be. but i’m so so proud of you for working on yourself and your mental health. and i’m glad you decided to take a break for yourself. i hope the break has been fruitful!

and gosh i’m so sorry about your bunny :( it can’t be easy. my cats go play around away from the garden for a bit and i freak out when i don’t see them around. so i can’t imagine how terrible it must be.

but AHHHHH NEW KITTYYYYYY!!!! so excited!!! did you get the kitty already? what’d you name it? what kind of cat is it??? heheh i love cats and i’m so excited for you!!

i’m proud you’re working on your self esteem and i get that sometimes the stuff we want comfort from most tend to become the most stressful because we’re in a bad place and the magic and comfort just doesn’t feel the same and it just… ultimately feels worse cause it feels like you lost something very important to you :(

but i hope slowly you can return. i miss seeing you on here and i miss your lil asks and your opinions on my random posts jshdjsjdjsk but no pressure! take your time and i hope you feel better soon 💛💛💛 and i’ll be here~ with a bunch of comfort fics if you wanna ever read em hehe

nooo don't worry, i don't frequently check my notifs anyway so i didn't notice 😭

yeah, my biggest problem was getting out of survival mode, i am the avoidant type of person so it's very hard for me to deal with anything in my life that's out of my comfort zone, but i finally stepped up and started to figure things out. ofc it's still hard and because i've been focusing solely on survival for so long i don't really know what i want from life anymore?? but i am proud i can at least relax a bit more and i can give time to myself to think and reflect. thank you for the words~ you're so kind

yeah, i kinda got used to the idea that i'll never see my bunny again and i'm consoling myself with the thought that she's in a much better place now and that she's hopping happily without my cat bothering her lol 💗

unfortunately smth came up so i can't pick up the cat yet. i'm actually getting him from my friend bcs her cat gave birth a few month ago and she's giving me one of her kitties, but i have to wait 2 more weeks till i can finally get him. also, because i'm getting it from my friend, i actually don't know its breed 🤣 my friend doesn't know the exact breed of her cat and the dad is unknown (lol), so i can't tell for sure, but the mom is a combination of a tabby with some other fancy breed that i cannot recognise. it has many orange spots of her coat mixed with the regular tabby colors, does that make sense?? but he kitty i'm adopting has a dark coat with no orange spots at all. it looks like a tabby, but much darker than usual, idek how to explain 😭

ALSO i actually SUCK at giving pets names 😭😭 i always get overwhelmed bcs it feels like such a big responsibility to me so i always collect ideas from other people. sooo if you have any cool male cat names in mind 👀👀 i'm more than glad to hear

yeah, that's exactly how it feels with comfort places 😭😭 that's why i got away from tumblr a little bit, i didn't want it to start feeling like a 'responsibility' or like something i needed to do, i tend to do that with my hobbies sometimes and it makes them unenjoyable. i also stopped writing for a while and opening tumblr was reminding me about that and it made me feel a little guilty haha

but! it's summer vacation now and things are moving in the right direction (in my opinion at least) so who knows.

aw, THANK YOU, TI, you're so sweet 🥹🥹 i miss sending asks and answering on random stuff too 😭 i am glad i was not an annoyance with those lol

and!!! i actually do want to read what you've been posting since i disappeared 👀 is there anything you'd recommend me to read first??

[realwaldojeffers]

cool! i've heard of these bands of course but never actually listened to them, but i do like lou reed and david bowie! they were one of the first artists i got familiar with when i got into classic rock, actually. how did you discover them?

oh i feel you about the wrapped thing - i listened to my top artist for like 9000 mins too 😭

and i understand the thing about writing so well 😭 i feel like it's the only way for me to tell my stories but it's so hard for me. i've been stuck on a story for honestly a ridiculous amount of time now. what is most difficult about writing for you? are there any tips that help you write?

and i draw too! what are your favorite things to draw and your favorite art materials? i mostly just use pencil, i'd really like to learn coloring but i give up every time lmao

-❄️

Hayyyyy srry for taking forever to and you my secret Santa! I have been too caught up with my uni final that I forgot to send my response! Lol I’m still alive btw, exam fortunately did not kill me and now I’m a free man enjoying my winter holiday

For your first question, I think I discovered Bowie back in 2015 from my English teacher. At the time I was starting to take an interest in rock music, so he sent me a digital copy of Bowie record. I didn’t remember which one but I guessed it prob was Aladdin Sane cause I remember being a shithead I think the song is so bad from being an angsty 13 yo who didn’t listen to anything but hardcore and Metal (yes I was annoying lol) So, I pretty much lost the copy and still regret it.

But I started to get seriously into Bowie around last year and he has been my obsession since then. For Lou and VU, it’s probably a bit of Bowie influence cause I was digging deep into Bowie career and his interest so ofc I found Transformers album and things just went dow from there….. Once you got in, you can’t find the way out hahah

For the writing question, I think one of my struggles is I cannot order my words and writing structure very well which is a bummer being a media studies and linguistic major 🫠 Also English is not my first language even tho I’m pretty much living as a bilingual nowadays. Coming from an Asian background, Western grammatical structure can be a pain. But smth that helps me with my writing is planners. I just have to do an outline and a draft every time I write.

Mostly I do fan arts! I’m also a big fan of Scifi and British comedy so I have another art acc dedicated to those *nudge nudge* I often do my art digitally nowadays but I still love water color and painting on frame.

Thank you so much for your questions and interaction! I’m so excited to heard more from you!

-🌞Tawan (that’s my name btw)

[rrxnjun]

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Ohh so k-pop does get overwhelming at times like keeping up with all of their comebacks and activities does take a toll on the psyche 🤧 i took a small break of sorts back in 2021 just to get a breather and instead focus my energy on books :') the whole pandemic situation and the lockdown was beginning to get to me + i had to deal with an academic burnout but !! things are definitely better now.

OKAYY so it took me a lot of time to finalise a bias in nct dream and tbt all nct units unghhh i lobe them all but my nct dream bias as of now is renjun. this man has me wrapped around his finger and activates the heart eyes WDYM HE HAS A PRETTY VOICE HES AN ARTIST HE'S PRETTY HE'S SHARP TONGUED AND HE'S A TOTAL SWEETHEART LIKE HE'S SO CARING 100% BFF/BF MATERIAL :( FDIBCFBN GOD HAS HIS FAVOURITES ALRIGHT and oml don't even get me started w the yangyang and renjun interactions im still reeling from when they did this.

In 127 i have a soft spot for the vocal line lol so i usually bias whoever's in the vocal line for a particular song (DO THEY HAVE TO MAKE IT SO HARD TO CHOOSE THO). rn it's jaehyun bc I'm obsessed w his voice (it's his first few lines in good thing <33)

Oof faded in my last song just hits so hard and it hurts so bad the songs so deep. It's one of my favourite nct u songs that and baby don't like it (again. hoe anthems >>>) for 127 it's either heartbreaker (bc it's hyuck's world and we're just living in it) or good thing (bc jaehyun.) Basically love the limitless era. and for dream okayy i can't really choose but reload and boom era were both crazy good. as for wayv it's after midnight and maybee take off. Wbu what are your favourite eras/songs?

Ahh you're a carat ?? I've been trying to get into svt since hoshi's spider came out but it's still a work in progress :') Which all groups do you stan ?? (40k slowburns are segci and it's for Vernon?? sounds v interesting 👀)

and the yangyang fic's going to have angst okay thanks for the warning angst scares me but i find it beautiful (?) as a genre like whoa how do mere scenes and words strung up together in a completely different world make me feel so much. But again that's why i like reading in general. bonus points if i actually find the smth in the fic relatable :')

YUSSUH 5SOS SUPREMACY youngblood was THAT album yk. weird but their music and a few select songs from twenty one pilots and imagine dragons help me concentrate and actually solve calculus ... esp easier and good girls 😭 idk why tho and whahfkfkkg they came to your city ?? Djnffkfm most international artists usually don't come near South Asian countries ie the place where I live 🤧

and yes so i listened to a few more songs by waterparks but I'm obsessed with 21 questions. i can't stop putting it on loop 😭😭 fdhjk pls feel free to send in more song recs

p.s. i enjoy talking to you too to the point where i think i ramble a little too much hrkfjfnf Have a good day/night <3

SORRY FOR REPLYING LATE I SUCK AT HUMAN INTERACTION

kpop does get overwhelming sometimes dfkjlas but also i just kind of got bored for a bit so i didnt feel motivated to check up on it in so long,, but now i just found the excitement again and i feel the same i did when getting into it for the first time its so amazing. i got into kpop just before the pandemic started, so it was something that was keeping me going during the lockdowns and shit :) i am glad you're feeling better now, though!

OUR BIASES MATCH AAAAAAA #besties fdlksaj renjun is literally the love of my life i think us two are similar in a lot of things (our zodiac signs, personalities, interests, anger issues...) so i think loving him so much helped my selflove djfkla this sounds weird but its true to some extent?? AND DONT MENTION THE CAMPING TRIP VIDEO IN FRONT OF ME ITS MY COMFORT VID AAAAA everything abt it is so wholesome,,, their little karaoke sessions, the shopping, the cooking,, them switching languages every now and then,, also yangyang singing i'm gonna love you by d.o. is stuck in my head that moment felt special.

in 127 i tend to gravitate towards mark and hyuck but i cant really count them bc theyre my dream biases as well LMAO but if i exclude them, i'd say i bias doyoung? i have a soft spot for yuta as well haha and recently my head is full of jungwoo but i'm not gonna give that too much weight just yet it might be a phase we'll see

I LOVE HOE ANTHEMS AAAA no one does sexy songs like nct. no one can compare. period. my fav eras would probablyyy be hot sauce/hello future for dream i fucking love that era and i miss it so much it was comfort for me. hot sauce was the first album ive ever bought from my first ever paycheck haha<33 for 127 probably superhuman/kick it/punch era? altho i wasnt a stan back then yet,, so i didnt fully experience it and for wayv turn back time era!!

i AM a carat!! spider is so good oml truly a cultural reset. no one does it like kwon soonyoung. i stan quite a few groups i think?? my ults are definitely nct, seventeen and txt! i keep up w them the most:) and then i stan enhypen, stray kids and p1harmony, although i dont really watch their contents or anything anymore,, im more of a casual stan for them. wbu?

yesyes its an angsty one but its not that bad i think fklf i definitely wrote more traumatic fics than this one. there's actually a yy tiktok i saw that literally represents how i wrote him in this fic it fit so much uh god i'll show it to you if you're interested

SOLVE CALCULUS HDAKL thank god i dont have maths anymore<33 that was a real struggle. i used to have a twenty one pilots phase tbf but im glad its behind me now bc the tyler joseph now is not the tyler joseph i used to stan!:)) and nooo they didn't come to my city! i'm from slovakia and literally no one comes to slovakia so i get your sturggle. they came to krakow and vienna though and that's kind of close to me!

21 questions>>>>> literally one of the songs that inspired my yy fic. do you use spotify? i'll make you a rec playlist if you really want!

p.s. i really enjoy talking to you hihi i missed your asks hhhh please dont think you ramble too much bc i do too!! it shows that we are comfy w each other xx

[yeonjuins]

i'm definitely a lot better, thank u so much <3 aside from being super super tired, i'm all good now and have fully healed :)) my bed has been so comfy these last two mornings, i've not wanted to move. i just want to take my bed with me while i work lmao. i think one of my problems in the morning is staying in my pjs while i work and i should probably work in my skinny jeans or smth to wake me up a little. :') i totally get you, i can fall asleep pretty quickly but if i have a nightmare or a cat stands on my face, it wakes me up and disturbs my sleep :(

that sounds like the absolute perfect pc 😍 that's basically what i want. as i play a lot of big games, a powerful pc is my goal. it's been really sad watching my games start to crash as time went on and now i can't play anything. one of my moots plays overwatch which is my favourite game and i'm excited to play it together with her <3333

WHY'S THAT SO FUNNY OH MY LORD 😂 i hate having those dreams that feel too real, like i had a dream that i broke up with my s/o over text and it felt SO REAL, i checked my phone in a panic and was so relieved that i didn't break up w him🥺😂

certain dreams mean certain things but some of mine don't make any sense sometimes. i always remember my dreams and when i tell my s/o, he looks at me like "what's wrong w you" LIKE I CAN'T CONTROL MY DREAMS???? i once had a dream that i went to a creepy zoo and there was a creepy old witch in one of the cages and then she saved me from being chased by a giant pencil. like what does that even mean 😂😂😂😂😂

i do not cope sleeping in warm weather, i need the fans on to sleep <3 i always worry for my kitties in the hot weather. uk houses aren't ventilated, they're not designed that way so the only way to keep them cool is to put loads of fans on and put ice in their water bowls :(

I SOBBED SO MUCH but then again when do i not at movies. i really enjoyed it :((( i watched it with my mum bc she was having an off day and she loved it <333

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truly my bed is super comfy... i'm able to wake up in the mornings but the hardest part is literally leaving my bed imo ;; does not matter what time i went to sleep at, if i have to be somewhere i will be awake but i do not want to leave my bed <3 which results in me falling back to sleep (": taking your bed to work with you seems like such a dangerous play... i'd fall asleep at work at any given time that i am tired and mess up my sleep schedule even more </3

THATS SO CUTE pls i hope once u get your pc built you're able to play all the games your heart desires <3 i have more of a knack of watching gameplay rather than actually playing it myself... my sense of logic with this is that i do not want to think on my free time and therefore, i will just watch others do all the thinking PAHAHAH one of my favourite games of all time is the ace attorney franchise and it's a... mystery? detective? sort of game? problem solving? LOL but it requires a lot of piecing together evidence to statements which my brain goes [STATIC] too <3 i love the game overall tho... the plotline is so funny and good (":

chased from a giant pencil... so true... that sounds like a good disney movie imo LOL the pencil gets all angry and begins to sharpen itself to make it's tip sharper and suddenly it's a weapon to society LMFAO AND OMG HAVING A DREAM U BROKE UP WITH YOUR S/O ;; that's acc horrifying... i had a couple dreams like that where my main group of friends left me </3 but i've had several funny ones and i'd wake up and send my friends voice notes INSTANTLY so i can sleepily talk about it and remember it for later times since they're so insane....

whenever it's summer, the ac in my house is always on full blast for some reason so it feels like winter in a sense LOL and it's vice versa for winter... my house feels extremely hot ;; it's nice in a sense knowing i'm all cozy or cooled but really not nice to experience during the extremes of the two weathers imo PAHAHHA i hope ur cats do okay in hot weather ): giving them my hugs

i also cry very easily to like.... legit anything LOL so me crying is not a good verdict of whether or not something is actually good <- is just very emotional but ! i did enjoy turning red, it was really cute hehe (:<

[fireowll]

Omg that sounds horrible!!! First off, what kind of jokes are those?? Its clearly not funny to read something your friend explicitly didn't want you to read!! And shipping them with their bully?? Like, seriously??

And, the bullying sounds terrible!!!! Like, genuinely why tf would you call someone an ogre and take their things?? And making loud noises to scare them?? Ughh

You really should throw your notebook at him!!

Hopefully, things start getting better <33

Amd great to know you like your new hair colour!! Purple sounds really cool!! >:00 And drawing's so much fun!!! I ended up finishing my sketchbook of a month yesterday and had to get a new one ^^;

Ive been doing somewhat okay! But recently things started being really horrible for me, so i ended up fighting with a friend while venting at the same time… she said its fine and that i can vent to her anytime and she'll listen, so im in love with her now (in a platonic way ofc)

About eating well… ive skipped eating dinner like 4 times in a row, so yeah thats not going too well, but i have been sleeping well tho!!

As for something good happening, today im gonna meet to of my friends!! Its not rlly been so long since ive hung out with them individually, but the three of is haven't hung out ever since i left dance class, so im pretty excited!!

Once again, i hope things get better for you soon!!! Sending you all my positive energy to cheer you up!! Also if you ever need to vent or smth, know im always there for you <33

yes, i was quite upset with the two of them who read the thing i didn't want them to read and i'm building up the courage and waiting for the right moment to talk to them about their "jokes". only one of them shipps me with the bully, but the two keep talking about me dating someone, although it's clear that i don't like these jokes. the girl who shipps me with the bully shipps me with anyone who breathes the same air as me /hj. and the two keep trying to see my screen when i use my phone or they try to grab my phone to try to find some non-existent "boyfriend" or "girlfriend". it's annoying. as soon as i get the chance to, i'll try to talk to them about it (gotta see if they'll take this seriously because they never seem to take things seriously).

yeah, the bully doesn't just mess with me. i see him stealing other people's backpacks at recess, he keeps calling me and my friends schizophrenic (in a negative way), he keeps teasing and hitting another friend of mine (which thank god has more sense than the other two). and he is always making a mess in the classroom, it doesn't matter how much the teachers try to make him stop, it's no use. he's always been like that since he was a kid, i've studied with him at another school before this one.

yeah!! i love purple so so so much!!!! :D also i was working on changing some things in my oc, and i think so far i'm liking the result :DD

i'm glad you're doing okkaiy :) and i'm sorry about the horrible things, i hope your friend is a good person and hope things get better :] i'm glad you're sleeping well but please tell me you've at least been eating lunch, snacks. and please if you feel hungry and have a headache try to eat something. also i hope you have fun with your friends!!! :D

thank you so so much for all the support, i love you all /p, you all are so sweet and i'm glad that you guys won't be mad at me. but hey! keep half of your positive energy for you too, you should also have it! but seriously thank you, it's good to know i can count on someone <33

[juyeo-on]

Sbsisjeje I'm back! I meant to send another ask before I went to sleep last night but totally crashed before I could lol. Also no you're totally right, I did want you to choose one for me! I'm very indecisive and would have never been able to choose one for myself.

I actually dont have an iPhone so the feather emoji isnt showing up for me, but I really love the reasoning behind why you picked it and think it's really cute so I looked up a photo of the emoji so I could still use it in my asks, but for some reason it wont let me add photos. Let me know if you know how to fix that pls!

For the au I totally agree with what you were thinking, like they have to actually be civil for once and then from there they start developing/noticing their feelings sjsbsjshhehehe.

You've got me so excited about this idea already eeeee! Also of course I wanna talk to you, you've been very nice to me in every ask I've sent so far I was worried I was gonna annoy you at first

OMGGGG i hope u rested well whew these days its getting more tiring in general because of the WEATHERRR its so hot

NAOOOOO U CANT SEE THE EMOJI? WAITIM SO SAD let me just. add a pic of the feather ALSO I USE ANDROID TOO twinzies

thats the emoji its so cute i wanted to try writing w a quill for a long time now N OMGGG SURE i think it has to do smth w my setting which ill have to see after answering this ask🤔🤔

and omg... right like AND THATS THE WORST PART im sooo indevisive i have like 7 new instances popping up in my head every 12 hours for them to get familiar w each other but none of them sound good enough so im gonna list it all down and tell it to u the next time we talk HEHEHEHE

IM SUPER EXCITED TOO like i know how to start the au now n ill prolly get started w it by the beginning of april? bc i have exams rn (chem tmr KILL ME NOWWWWW after chem i have math n bio ughhh) THEN IM GETTING STARTED WOOP WOOP

also stopppp.....IM ACTUALLY SOOO HAPPY thank u for sending me asks really😢😢😢🫂🫂💗 UR NOT ANNOYING AT ALLLLLL TRUST ME

UPDATE: wait i think i did smth im assuming u can send me photos through asks if ur using tumblr as an app but im not sure if u can send pics if ur using it via web HMMM @tumblr do u want to take some suggestions from me

[carpedmpodcast]

I just want to say thank you all so much. I've been going through a really rough patch recently and carpe dm has helped me so much? It's smth I don't get tired of listening to, and tbh I often just start at episode one and binge it if I had a bad day. I always get really excited when I realize it's Friday, you all make my week! Idk where this was going but I just wanted you to know how much I appreciate you. (I'm sorry I didn't send this to your personal blogs, I just wanted you all to see it)

Hi, Nate here. So like, today I'm working with my boyfriend, Alphonse, selling at a convention. And during a lull I was talking to him about Carpe DM and I mentioned a message I'd gotten awhile back, an anon from someone who said something along the lines of "thank you for making sheriff Emeka nonbinary and black like me! I love them!" It was a simple message but it was a profoundly powerful moment for me because in that moment I realized that, in some small way, I'd helped someone. Like, this is a small thing I do, a podcast that a few hundred people listen to. But like- This small thing I do, this thing I make, it made someone smile, and I gave them a character they enjoyed that made them happy. And that small thing mattered... so much.Everyone deserves to feel like they have a place in stories, that they have lives worth telling stories about. And not just very special episode stories- dumb, casual, geeky stuff too. It's not just about representation, even though that's really important and a massive focus of mine with my narratives. It's that people listen to this podcast we make and they're happy. They like it. It's a small thing, that joy, but I believe in the butterfly effect- i make you happy for one moment and that's the moment they open the door for someone struggling, or choose to be kind in some small way to another and that person takes that moment and chooses to be kind- this small thing I can, in some small but significant way, make the world I live in ever so slightly better. And every time we get a message like this it reminds me how much... that matters. And I want to continue bringing people happiness! I want to do good for the world i live in and make it better than i came into it! The things i do may be small but small things can big to people! Thank you for letting me do this one small good thing. Thank you for letting me make you happy. Thank you for spreading that happiness with kindness. Thank you for listening.